the day

it's the day..the day when results is to be announced soon
i was so so so tired yet i couldn't get myself to sleep yet
i keep thinking of it as i lay on my bed

i was thinking how if i failed any of the subjects??
or how if i failed each n every of it??
however,i'll not have the chance to look back
i can now only look at my results n cry??
blame myself for not working hard for it??

i AM so down recently
first of all..yes..results was what i was worried bout..
n this is what i can't change..
i know i can only tell myself to work harder on next semester

secondly,it's been something not well regarding to my relationship
relationships between friends n family.
i think i shall never give a great hope on someone else that will lend u a hand each n every time u need it
perhaps,wish that yourself could get over it without anyone's help would be better

then,i don't even know is this one of the reason.
some shitty feelings keep sticking onto my heart??
or is that my mind which was keep thinking bout something that i shouldn't have think of??
i hope myself don't give a damn on u
yet, u keep appearing "in front of" me..
can i just get my eyes off from u??
i don't know how could i feel that way
but it's the fact that i'm feeling that sux
sorry to be rude,yet i really really hate it
i hate the feeling that ever came back to me at this moment
after so long that i thought i had forgot how it feels
n that was all what i THOUGHT

i can't comment more on my life~
because i've made part of it that bad by myself
i know shouldn't blame and shall continue with it
i shall try my very best to get thru it
and most importantly to make it a BETTER life~

well..i thought i found a way to make myself better just now
cam-whore for the whole night
yet..i still gotta release it here

anyway..putting up this pic..n which do u think suits me more?? (=


or normal, leaving it down will do?? =D

finals ended, did my holidays actually started??

throughout the whole finals
i was really suffering from 'not enough sleep' and 'gastric'
as i really really got to sleep like max 3-4hrs a day??

yet..the worst news during my finals was my hamster was gone~!!
where did he goes?? did the cat ate him up??
how pity was him?? argh~!!! why?? why him??!! T.T

after the forth paper which left the one and onli paper on 19th of sept
it was Jia's sis wedding time~
well..it wasn't a bad time though..

then..the last paper done~
i found myself no way to rest well
up n down, in n out

at first, Chia Ann was leaving on the 25th of sept
so we were busy about her farewell n everyting
then, a chill out night with my UTAR BKB teammates
after tat is the time to send off Chia Ann d

then??Jerry's grooming la..
buy air tickets la..
book this n tat..
print this n tat
all are my job..

oh ya..bkb training at Kampar
although it wasn't a good experience..
yet..i got to know some nice friends n had some fun over dere

even until today..grandma is in hospital
i'm rushing in n out to catch up the time to visit her
or catching up time to fetch my bro
while nobody was willing to help me at all

now..i lost the thing i need the most now~!!
my smart tag~!!
i need to travel up n down from sunway to klang, klang to sunway
yet..my smart tag got stolen
why must everything happens at the same time??

such a tiring life huh..
wondering why did the director of my life dun give my story a fullstop here n give me sometimes to start my new chapter of life??!!

but..the most tiring thing wasn't of all those stated above
i'm tired of got blaming all time
(even if it's not my fault,can the hell world pls be fair to me??)
i'm tired of asking for help yet nobody was willing to help me
i'm tired of thinking for who to ask to accompany me to chill myself at the time i really need it
i'm tired of begging my brothers to go for supper with me
(do i need to really beg u??i dunnit to beg my frens in tat way)
i'm tired of being treated as no one at home
(can u pls respect me??can u pls LISTEN to wat i said??)

I dare not to wish for anything
but can u pls listen n respect??
or could u pls listen before u judge??
or....

this is why i love LISTEN so much
cuz it somehow is wat i hoped for
i wish..i could have a short break now before my new sem get started
pls let me rest~!!

FINALS

well..it's again end of another sem..
i did not do well in my test and so my coursework marks are very low
even some of them failed
i've screw up all my subjects this sem as i wasn't paying attention all the time~
it was a seriously wrong step tat i've taken throughout this sem

n now..it's final exam time
am i too nervous for it now??
i couldn't sleep well each n every night~
i'm awake up to 5-6am
even if i could fall asleep
i'll sleep with mind with all MATHEMATICS
n i even dream of it
wat a nightmare~!!!!

i've no right to hope for anything now i think
yet i still hope tat i will not fail all my subjects this time
am working very hard for this finals~
n pray hard as well~

well..all the best dudes
hope ya'll will score with flying colors (=

RIP Ceci

You will be missed.. <3

believe it or don't ask.. XP

time passes very fast huh..
it's already 14th week of this sem..
n i'm still not ready yet..
i MUST..must...start preparing now d!!
so..i'll always carrying my notes everywhere?? hahaha

well..
i found tat people seems like dun trust me always..
argh..why huh??

seldom there's ppl will believe i dislike clubbing
then..whenever i said...i did not straighten my hair..
ppl will open their eyes big n said "are u sure?"
why not??
my hair is naturally STRAIGHT k??
n i'm so proud of it..
ngek ngek ngek~~

n the third thing...then ppl will ask how often u do hair treatment then??
"rarely...only do it right after i dyed my hair"
"dun lie lah....."
*m speechless*
then
"wat hair conditioner do u use??"
"i seldom use..if got also..take from aunt's saloon.. brand-less one.."
"huh??in how long time u'll use it once"
"one month once?? or maybe twice??"
"u r kidding me.."
ooiiiiiiiiiii...betul la deih...

anyway..not showing off over here..
m telling the truth tat...
dun lah keep asking but dun believe me at all..
why not u just dun ask??
hahahaha~~
*no offense ya*

kla...all test finished...
now come the last assignment...
done..hand up...
then say HI to finals..
all the best dudes.. (=

down.

i don't know why.
i'm down into the deep earth right now.

the reason shall not be told.
the secret shall not be revealed.

i've tried to set myself to the highest point as i thought i could.
yet, i had failed.

i thought i should be happy.
i'm not indeed.

tears are not falling down from my eyes, on my face.
but it is rolling deep inside my heart.

however, that's all i've chosen for myself.
no complaints shall be entertained.

the only thing is to blame myself.
blame myself for not being smarter.

i do know how life goes up and down.
don't comment if you think i'm complaining.
please understand,
i'm just trying to express my feeling and keeping the rest for myself.

10th week passed

10 weeks of this sem has passed!!
which means there's another 4 weeks for me to prepare for my final exam
yet..i don't think i had get anything prepared yet
as..i wasn't really really paying attention all the while..
isn't it??
so..i must try my best to get myself ready for the exam
so tat i'll get at least a 3.0?? haha
i hope tat's not only my dream
and hopefully it'll happen in reality as well

it's not a great week neither
got drunk at the beer factory tat day
i dunno why
but i was really tired tat day
tat's why i fall tat fast??
or..wat's happening me??
but..i know i gotta live my life a great one
cheer babe..
let's cheer (=
i know i can do it..

all the best guys..
let's work hard for our final exam (=

study's life~~

it's been days tat i'm not updating my blog ya.
well..it was some busy days with tests and assignments

and those tests were like..
"omg..i don't know how to do!!"
err...so...i'm nicely asking myself..
"am i really suitable for this course??"
or shall i change course now???

anyway...it was some ordinary days with studies and sleep
buy not anything else..
hoho~~

yet..me n my roommate Jane
we were prettily excited to cook some food for ourselves during the busy days


our carbonara <3

degree life

there's only a word to describe my degree life - BUSY
freaking busy with assignments and tests
gosh..and I'm so blur on the subjects that I'm learning now
hopefully I can really get through it and get some good results
wow...can't imagine how GOOD will my results be.. ==

well..gotta stuck my head in my tutorial questions n revisions again
there are 4 tests next week
with an assignment due ==
good luck everyone ^^

14.02.2012

on 14th of feb..which is everyone else's valentine's day
which means nthg to me..hahaha

anyhow..we came bak to klang to celebrate kiddo's birthday
first,we planned to come bak at 5.30
but too bad la...my dear fren locked her keys in her room
spent some times to open her door
then came out..thought of NKVE will be faster
yet, accident caused road closure n there goes la
we had stuck in the jam for almost 2 hrs
omg..luckily i wasn't tat one who was driving..muahahaha

then came bak to meet boii to have dinner with her n vianz
pity them for sitting at fairies waiting for us..
but isn't it good?? XD

well..we went to fairies again to meet kiddo
oh ya...bought cake first b4 we went
hahaha
after all....we took kinda many pics..haha
then then then...go home..sleep loooooo

almost every year we spend our valentine's day to celebrate her bday...
how u shall appreciate us?? hahaha


all of us.. <3

11,12,13 feb 2012

last sunday..which means 12th feb is peiying's bday
hence,on saturday night itself we went to celebrate with her
as usual..it's at fairies..n with a cake onli..

Jane was also there...with her husband...
hohoho~~ once met him...we must get drunk man.. ><
the worse thing was..i accidentally made my glass of beer spill on me
my pants was wet
luckily fen have extra pants on her car........thank god man

on tat sunday,we went to the Veg Fish Thai Restaurant to have dinner with her
the real celebration..wow..hahaha
then after tat i went back to hostel again looooo......

on monday, yee mun came to setapak to visit us..
n it shall be a farewell for her as she's going to taiwan today...
yes..today..19th feb..bye yee mun.. )=
on monday night, we first went to have dinner at wings cafe..
then went for second round at overtime...hehehe~~~
buy 1 free 1..n it was the first time i saw leehui drink until so high...
hahahaha~
it was a fun fun night..


yee mun n me.. <3


the three of us..taken in the toilet..hahaha


me and lee hui.. XD


a rose for yee mun.. (=

happy CNY 2012.. =D

well well well..
CNY had already over..
n i was so busy with taking my ang pau's n got no time to post any blogpost at all..
hahaha

anyway..it was kind of a great CNY??
XD
n obviously ang pau's money this year is definitely more than previous years
anyhow..i'm not tat kind of "money face" person
as long as i noe it's meaning..n it's from u
how much doesn't matter man!!
thanks to all the aunties uncles tat gave me the angpau's
n of course my parents n ah ma!!
hahahaha

and and and..
the last day of CNY which ppl calls it chap goh mei
as usual..we went tg. harapan again
hohoho~~~
i remember the year of 2007..
i went with a bunch of best frens
during 2008...few of besties
2009..gang of besties changed..onli 4 of us went..
2010..the same gang of 2009 but more ppl went
2011...alone at HOME!!
then 2012...the gang of 2008+one of 2009+some new ppl..
XD
well..so am i supposed to say...
my CNY on 2012 ends better than those previous years??
hahaha

my wish was simply ordinary...
hope they'll come true...

so...i think i need to stop here as i'll get it very long if i continue somemore..
LOL

nitez world!! (=

2 more days

another 2 more days and it is our beloved Chinese New Year!!
yeah!!!~~~

yet...the amount i spent on clothes this year is just pretty too much
oopppsss~~
and it is the very first time tat i'll spend more than 100 on a shirt
err...ya..tat's so not me!

previously i'll onli look for something like 40-50
but this year..at this time
i dunno why
and i dun understand why
my eyes are keep attracting by those expensive ones..
no way man!!!
i can't be so realistic..
hey!! i'm just a student!!
i must pull myself bak to the path i used to walk...
wake up wake up!!!
hahaha

anyway..wishing everyone will have a great CNY this year!!
happy CNY!! XD

CNY is coming very sooonnnnn!!! XD

omg..CNY is just around the corner..
has everyone get their new clothes??
well...i did not get enough clothes yet???
hahaha
but i'm extremely happy because my room is so damn clean now
hohoho~~~
but my mum said..onli once a year...
awww...how sad..

well...had gone to pyramid with mum n bros today..
yet..i got nthg to bring bak from the mall today.. )=
so..i'm now planning pretty hard bout next week's shopping schedule..
hehehehe~~
to shop rite after classes everyday..
muahahahhaa...

then then then...thing to be so happy
our beloved fren Jane had got married..
and at the very last minute...i was asked to become one of her 'ji mui'
hohoho~~~
had fun tat day...playing/fooling around with those 'heng dai'
keep asking for ang pao.. money money money~~~~
ngek ngek ngek~~ XD

oh no..tat was my first time being ji mui also
jane jane...my first time gave to u d lo??!!!
hahaha
but fun experience la
dinner at nite was great also
but..long journey to travel on la..
yet..it worth..
i like the food..
haha..~~

and and and..yesterday nite..
this jane n the husband chow meng....
came to klang..
goodness...12 buckets of tiger..
drink until my tummy looks like a balloon man..
so gassie!!!
but great to know him also la..
cuz he's kinda very friendly?
hahahha
well..thanks for the beer
but it almost took my life..
cheh~~
choi choi choi~~
hahaha

well..great experiences and great time with u guys!!
remember must live happily together!!
must be very hang fuk ya!! XD

happy 2012

at last..it's been raining..
after few days of extremely hot sun..

well..it's time tat ppl are starting their classes..
yet..my class will only starts 2 weeks later
wow..my lil bro had went up to higher secondary
n the elder one had gone to his college uni..
hopefully he'll get himself into it and quickly finish up his diploma with kinda good results
good luck ^^

well well well..my results gonna release soon..
how soon?? i dunno
but heard tat it's within this week
however, it's already friday now..
office time had over too
so...wait for next week then
haha

and woah..it's 2012 now!!
goodness...is it true as wat ppl said..it's the end of the world when it comes to 20.12.2012??
hahaha
anyhow...hopefully everyday can live the life good throughout the year
wishing everyone to have a good good year..
hahaha

so..i hope i'll have my new life too
to continue it with the road i had chosen
a way out of everything..
and have a greater life perhaps??









p/s i'm sorry..so so so sorry..

i cried..

simply because..i hate u!