2.22am

it's 2.22am now!!
and i'm still awake..online here
i've just been bak at home
yes...i went out until damn blardy hell late!!
it's been like..nobody is asking why but keep scolding!!

dun feel like saying at bad things bout my family..
yet..i wouldn't stand it when it keeps going on..
pls...i'm extremely tired of EVERYTHING..
totally exhausted!!
could u pls think a lil for me before asking me to keep thinking for u??
please!! i know wat am i exactly doing..

ppl always say tat stress is wat u've given yourself
and it's not wat ppl had gave u
but..there's always an exception
always and always..
i dun even know how to handle it at all...
can anyone pls tell me wat shall i do for tat??
nthg i said will be entertained!! argh

holidays!! woohoo~~~

yeah~~~ at last...we're on holidays!!
well...it's a month long holidays
and Christmas is around the corner!! following by new year..
then Chinese New Year!!
omg...but it seems like..there's no clothes for me this year..
so damn fat la me now
wth...how huh??

anyway..hopefully we can really enjoy throughout this holidays...
bcuz next semester is gonna be a tough one!!
and ya..hopefully...i pass all my subjects this time!


guys!! Merry Christmas n Happy New Year in advance!! XD

finals

this is the first final exam of my 'degree life'
hahaha
well..it's a short sem and hence there's only 2 subjects to be examinated
the first one was in this afternoon..
the French language..
goodness.........it's not a tough subject though..tat's why i was wandering around before exam starts or during study week.
and consequently, last minute revision was done..
awwwww....yet...the exam paper is serious..frankly saying..not so hard... LOL

since this is a Pass or Fail subject..so..we're just basically aiming for a PASS...
hopefully there's NO Fail in my result slip man.. XD
and so...the next coming up paper will be Introduction to Sociology..
omg..Sociology..
it's not an extremely hard subject but it's a hardly understood subject..
wow...so..can i pass this subject with flying colours??
as it is our so called subject with gpa...
so..it's kinda important huh..
hopefully everything will go on smoothly
n hence i can nicely have my Christmas n new year celebration after this.. XD

pray hard tat those tat are coming out for exam are those i had studied all these while
n then pray tat my hamster, Ceci will take good care of her babies so tat they can grow up healthily and i have more pets to raise on.. XD
well..see u soon after my precious final exam.. (=

à bientôt!!

life~~

living a new life at KL??
dunno whether it is new life or not..
anyway..had shifted from one house to another..
it's just because the first roommates were so NOT nice!!
sigh..
anyhow...i've shifted out to stay with my frens..
n with a new roommate..
n well..she's nice..hahaha..

not a so tough sem..
but ending of the sem is tiring.. ><
this sem gonna over soon..next sem is a new sem with challenging subjects..
omg...hopefully i'm safe! (=

at last

i'm back again after so long..haha
had just finish working at the CHILD of TOMORROW which is the home schooling i was telling previously..
feel kinda upset for leaving them
hope they'll live better as they grow..
n thanks alot for the pressie they gave me man..
chocolates!! i love the most.. n love u all as well!! ^^

well..i had officially finished my foundation n i'm going for degree course very soon..
hahahahahaha
yet..my tough life is coming to me man
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hopefully my roommate is a nice girl
n i think she is..hahaha
n hope tat it's a good good life for me over there..hahaha

well...anything else to update will continue molo..
hehehe
nitez

recently..sorry

well..according to last blog tat i had mentioned i failed my sem3
n so..i went to search for job..
n yeah..i got my job easily
as the boss hire me not onli in one places but both her places to teach..
i'm not teaching normal students..
but they r special..
i feel unfortunate for them as they r really pity..
they can't learn like wat we do..
some of them are hyper..
n so..we must be strict n fierce to them
but once they r scared of u..they cry in front of u..
aihz..couldn't describe the feelings in words la..
yet..they r really tough..
some of them can't remember things easily..
but they learned it very by hard
some they dun even noe how to write n speak..
but they r also trying hard to learn it..
n hence..why do we tat can learn well dun learn in a right way??
God gave us the opportunity n we shall appreciate it..

then..we had just went for some so called trip recently..
onli 3 of us..
well..it wasn't too bad..
at first the plan was to Bukit Gambang, Kuantan.
but end up..we changed our plan due to some of our frens can't make it
so, we went to Bukit Tinggi n then turn to Malacca..
not bad thou..

but on the same day..
i had really made some stupid move as to throw some temper on my fren..
sorry..but i really din noe wat was happening to me n i had just got kinda angry with it..
somehow..i might just wanna express myself as to tell bout my feelings??
i might had used the wrong way..
but i'm so sorry..
if u see this..hope u'll accept my apologize..

well..done with this..
nitez world..

20110514

at last i have some time to update here

well..tat day was my bday..
n ya..my 21st bday
wasn't planning to have party at first
but end up..due to those requests n to "bring up" my mood
i had decided to do so..
with my hand still with cement on it..

but it wasn't a great bday for me as i really had lotsa unhappy things during tat time..
i failed my sem3..i couldn't make it to degree
then my hand n all
was it the deepest i had ever fallen into during tat time??
sigh

anyhow..i shall thanks to all my lovely frens tat had given me surprisesn pressies!!
n those tat had attended my party..
appreciate it alot..
really thanks alot for tat..
love u guys!! muax!!

hopefully

well..after a month..
gotta go bak for check up molo d..
i hope my hand is in very good condition le..
*but i feel pain these few days..argh*

then then..coming saturday will be my big day d
muahahahaha
but..there's still something tat caused me 'headache' la
but well..hopefully it's not tat serious as wat i'm thinking
haha

n err..the most scary thing will be results i guess..
seems like the releasing date is very near d
n i'm getting more n more worried..argh

apa la tu?!!
no peace during holidays..
ish

hopefully everything will turn out FINE..

exam over..time to start diet plan ^^

well..finals is officially over..
ppl said i can relax d..
but it's just happening pretty well in the opposite way
i'm not relaxing as i'm really tensed because i had no confident at all for this finals..
so could i sleep well?? or shall i just awake for the whole nite to think of something tat was over??
sigh..
i really hope tat i wont fail for this sem le..
then i can really go for my degree course d..
aihz..

i had studied pretty hard for the bio paper..but end up..
do i really noe how to apply??
n i'm worried bout my maths paper..
again..am i really gonna pass tat paper??
or am i screwing tat paper up??
then..am i still qualify to study actuarial??
and so and fault..
can i just clear my mind n relax during this so called LONG BREAK??


well..shall i say thanks to tat fella or shall i say i'm really sad??
hahahaha
my wrist broken tat made me cant really do everything well..
but..i noe how it feels when i see ppl with onli one hand..
n i had really learnt to do things with onli one hand..
to eat with one hand..
drive with onli one hand..
carry my dog with one hand..
type with a hand..or now i even can bath with onli one hand..
haha..my fren said..
"i think since u had ur left hand broken..u learned to do everything with more patience ya??"
haha..is it??
but i dun feel so le..
XD

but well..i really really hope my hand will recover faster so tat i can really do everything myself but not troubling others..
but i still gotta thanks my frens n family so much for helping me all the while ^^



-a day to rest..dun feel like going anywhere- ^^

laptop ^^

wat a day..haha
well..early in the morning wake up for appointment at hospital..
but end up..it's a mistake as the nurse had written the wring info on my appointment card
argh..damn it!!
i missed the finals bcuz of u!! ><
wat ever..

then whole afternoon went out with mum..
n so..argued with her again..
wth..can the topic like end between us..
nvr end la..everytime argue sure la bcuz of tat..sigh

but..the happy thing is like..suddenly my laptop can be use d
tolong ah..dun spoil again pls.....
pls ah....................
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kla..i think i must hide myself for this whole coming week d..
to study for finals ah!!
hopefully wont fail la..aihz...

complainsssssssssssss

uhm....errr....ahhhh.....
dunno wat to say ah..
but feel like emo-ing here..
aihz

again i wanna mention..
terrible horrible n vegetable year for me lo..
kns..

sick is the most common thing in my life
onli 3 months of the year n i had sick dunno how many times..
especially food poisoning!!
it's totally making me MAD!!! argh!!!
then..my ear..i became half deaf once
n ya..feel like it is coming bak to me d..
the echo in my ear getting louder again..sigh..

then followed by accident!!
CAR accident..
wth!!
the very first minor accident was bcuz of my carelessness..
n it is fine!! who ask me to fall asleep??
yet this time was extremely bad when i was still so hyper
n it is like so ridiculous for me tat i had got into another accident again
which not onli cost me repairing fee for my car..or medic fee
but it cost me a hand!!

a plan to make cake for mum during her bday..SPOILED!!
another plan of celebrating my bday by wearing nice clothes n taking nice pic..SPOILED!!
with onli one hand at the moment..how much can i do??

n thanks to the very special important ppl tat had made my laptop screen looks so nice now
n ya..i got no laptop to use now..
wat else can i do??
n wat shall i do??
argh..
n so..repeated the assignment again n again..
ppl took time to study..
n i made a last minute revision..
n there goes my maths test..
which until now i still do not understand why my marks gone so low!!

yes yes yes..i'm complaining again..
why this why tat..
n why ME??
i don't know n i don't understand..

can anyone pls let me noe wat's next??
to fail my finals straight??
if were to say i'm blaming..
then let me blame once more
the blardy hell medicine makes me feel tired everyday!!
even 12hrs sleeping time is not enough at all!!
nvr feel so tired before..never..!!

but honestly..medicine certainly is not the onli reason..
yet..my life makes me more tired!!




however..i must thank my friends very very much as they help me alot..
u'll definitely see ur true frens hen u r in trouble..
n ya..they r always dere for me!!
thank u very much!!!!!!!!! <3

emo

there are certain times tat ppl will say i'm too emo
well..i am..not onli at certain time..but always
will always think wat for am i being so emo
to show ppl tat i'm a 'thinking too much' person??

hmmm..i dunno wat's going on on my mind
but i'll keep thinking n thinking n thinking
why shall this n tat happen on me??
why shall i go through all tat??
i noe there's much more ppl whose life are much more tougher than mine
but i'm just being so pessimistic all the while

can i ask..who the hell is feel like hating me then raise up ur hand??
then i'll keep myself away from u right after u tell me
cuz i dun think a person who hates me would like to see my face appearing in front of them..
argh..
i think i need answers
i think i need everything tat i'm thinking of..
but i got nthg..
sigh
am i such a useless person??
aihzzz

wat a life is this??

perhaps to say tat..it wasn't a great year for me..
as it nvr come as wat i expect...
i dun like the year...i dun like the days..
even..i dun like myself being in tat way..
do everyone thought tat i'm a happy going person??
or did anyone complaint tat i'm a person with tons of complains??

yes...i might gotta admit tat..i complaint alot alot alot!!
as i'm comparing so much with others...
i think this is not good enough..tat's not wat i want
n tat makes my life so miserable..
but isit wat u saw in me??
n am i really wat u r thinking of??

well...i think i dunnit to explain much anymore
n i dunnit to complain anything anymore..
as it is pretty too much complains in my life
n i have got no right to do so rite??
so...there goes my life...
my life will be going on
but without anyone knows anything bout me..
tat might be better!!

last day

today is the last day of chinese new year d..
haha
but..it wasn't a good CNY for me as i dun really enjoy it
yet..thanks for my frens who were always here with me throughout the CNY lah..
or else i'll be like totally isolated after CNY finished d..
hahaha

well...had had a great valentine's day this year too
5 of us went genting..again?
haha
to do "charity work" - donate money to the casino..
argh

n ya...i miss my secondary school frens..
nice having gathering with them during the third day of CNY

then my darlings..haha
although tat nite wasn't so nice tat small accident happened
but..overall..still good..
haha

to say the truth..i wasn't so happy
cuz of my own stuff..
dudes..no worries ya.. ^^

thanks everyone..
wish ya happy everyday.. XD

results

results out today..
n wth...the subjects tat i had expected to fail nvr fail
but the subject tat i thought wont fail..n i failed it
argh..how come huh??

screw my life up d..
i dunno wat to do now
onli thing i can do is..
remark the paper
if it dun work..
then i hope i can still take bak the paper during sem3
cuz i really dunwna to go sem4
it's such a wasting of time
argh..

pray hard i'll finish my foundation in onli 3 semesters..
argh..

genting ^^

went genting today
haha
it's like so so so cooling over dere
hope can go up again one day
hahaha
genting genting
i like the windy weather over dere
hahaha
but sad thing is...i wasn't allowed to go into the casino..
argh!!
how can it be??
the police say i look like not even 20 year-old..
can u believe tat??
blind u police!!
argh
fine..
may...he ask me to go bak on may
hahaha
soon...i'll be dere..
dun worry!!
XP
genting casino..tunggu i ya!!
XD